"I have decided to follow Jesus...no turning back...no turning back." - Lyrics from Third Day
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I saw the Five Minute Friday prompt last night and the title above jumped into my brain.
I rejected it because my view is negative at the moment and I didn't want to share it.
I was recently diagnosed with another life altering disease and it, by itself, threw me a big huge pity party serving only one... me.
I've fought the acknowledgement. I've tried to live in the denial of what is. I've rejected the illness and prayed for healing totally believing in a miracle (that I pray still comes).
However, after watching a DVD called "And None Go With Me" my view seems to be slightly expanding toward the positive side.
The view I have had was bleak. It's lonely. It's frightening. It's frustrating. It's filled with uncertainty.
I'm barely able to eat. I fall down (and boy does that floor get further away the older one gets). I've hurt myself. I'm weak beyond words. Pain is once again a frequent companion only now in a different way. Medical professionals aren't sure which illness flares when....and neither do I!
The view I have after watching the movie is of Christ's open arms and of my life verse: "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
The woman in the movie (Cheryl Ladd) experienced much loss (as I have, although in different ways) and still she kept her commitment to trust in God's will and to follow where He led.
I do not know what the future holds for me but I do know Who holds my future. I am thankful for that.
I believe there will be good days again. I trust that God knew this would happen and that He will bring good from it in His time.
The view from here is brighter now...almost as bright as the yellow along the jetty in my image above.... thanks to God speaking to me today through a DVD.
Blessings to you.
PS: Linking up with Five Minute Friday and Spiritual Sunday.
