Ponderings


There is in us a lyric germ or nucleus which deserves respect; it bids a man to ponder or create; and in this dim corner of himself he can take refuge and find consolations which the society of his fellow creatures does not provide. - George Norman Douglas quotes (Finnish Composer, 1865-1957)

My neighbor that I've been caring for is experiencing more pain from spreading cancer and from pneumonia.
He told me that he thinks his time on earth is about up, which deeply saddens me.

As I work in his house (sorting through papers and throwing out trash), a lump caught in my throat.  I have realized that by reaching out to help him, he has been of great help to me.

I've heard it said that by helping others you in turn help yourself.  I never really understood that until the other day when I felt the shift in my heart.... the pang of knowing he may soon die and leave my world.  I have grown to care for this man very much.  I can't begin to explain how much I appreciate him for allowing me in his life. Because, in doing so, he has given me opportunities to learn, grow, risk, and change in new ways.

I know this situation was brought about by God...something I'll always be grateful for.


9 comments

  1. It's quite something how we can just KNOW that certain people have been sent to us by God. And not just for the learning but for the emotional experience. To make us wiser, more tender hearted, more aware...I know your heart is breaking, yet you are so special and beloved by God for what you are doing. More than you will EVER know. Nothing we ever do for God is forgotten. "Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you. See, darkness covers the earth...but the Lord rises upon you and his glory appears over you." Isaiah 60

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  2. I believe this man is richly best to have a caring person like you to be there for him.Thank-you for your visits to my blog.I am richer because of your kindness.
    Blessings,Ruth

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  3. i am so happy for you, and you are so right, helping others helps ourselves. step 12 in Overcomers is Philippians 2;4 says it all
    "Let each of you look out not only for his own interestes, but also for the interest of others."
    and this one also.
    When you dig another out of their troubles, you find a place to bury your own. ~Author Unknown

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  4. It's ironic how much we learn about living under such sad circumstances. It teaches us a whole new appreciation for life.
    Your flower is stunning.
    ☼ Sunny

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  5. You have been given a gift as you give ... it's a blessing that you are able to recognize that.

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  6. I'm sorry to hear of your friend's pain and that his health is failing so rapidly. I imagine he is just as appreciative of you being in his life as you are to be in his life.

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  7. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I read that there is a purpose for everything for those who are called by God. May your heart be blest.

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  8. It's always tough to be close to someone thats very ill. I wish both of you the best. Lovely thought and photo.

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  9. I know your neighbor is very lucky to have you for a friend and helper!

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