Just As I Am

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. -- John 3:16 KJV

It's taken me a very long time to learn that I am loved - just as I am.

Years of abuse, pain, confusion and illness took it's toll on my thoughts, emotions and body.

I know that somewhere deep inside me has been a knowledge that has pushed me to keep moving in a forward direction.

I've worked hard to heal from the past. Very Hard.

I've ended relationships with people that were not good for me. I still care about those people. I just realized that their way of life didn't fit with the way I knew God wanted me to live. I thought I had to stay in relationship with those people because they needed me. The truth was, I was unable to help them. It was hard because I still care about those people - but I've released them to God. After all, He is way more qualified to help them than I am. He knows what they need and just the right way to help them. I don't. I can't.

All I can do is relish the love I feel knowing God loves me - the imperfect me - the one who was born a sinner, has sinned too many times to count but realizes once and for all - she is accepted and forgiven by the One who matters most. Jesus.