The View from Here

"I have decided to follow turning turning back." - Lyrics from Third Day

I saw the Five Minute Friday prompt last night and the title above jumped into my brain.

I rejected it because my view is negative at the moment and I didn't want to share it.

I was recently diagnosed with another life altering disease and it, by itself, threw me a big huge pity party serving only one... me.

I've fought the acknowledgement.  I've tried to live in the denial of what is. I've rejected the illness and prayed for healing totally believing in a miracle (that I pray still comes).

However, after watching a DVD called "And None Go With Me" my view seems to be slightly expanding toward the positive side.

The view I have had was bleak.  It's lonely.  It's frightening.  It's frustrating.  It's filled with uncertainty.

I'm barely able to eat.  I fall down (and boy does that floor get further away the older one gets).  I've hurt myself.  I'm weak beyond words.  Pain is once again a frequent companion only now in a different way.  Medical professionals aren't sure which illness flares when....and neither do I!

The view I have after watching the movie is of Christ's open arms and of my life verse:  "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

The woman in the movie (Cheryl Ladd) experienced much loss (as I have, although in different ways) and still she kept her commitment to trust in God's will and to follow where He led.

I do not know what the future holds for me but I do know Who holds my future.  I am thankful for that.

I believe there will be good days again.  I trust that God knew this would happen and that He will bring good from it in His time.

The view from here is brighter now...almost as bright as the yellow along the jetty in my image above.... thanks to God speaking to me today through a DVD.

Blessings to you.

PS:  Linking up with Five Minute Friday and Spiritual Sunday.


  1. Thanks for posting , and for your courage. I appreciate your realness. Jerimiah 29:11 has also been one of my 'life verses.' Prayers for continued trust and sensing Him with you every moment through difficult times.

  2. Oh, I'm so sorry to hear of this trial in your life. May His grace be sufficient and his mercies new every morning.

  3. Thanks for sharing your view in a real way. I am sorry to hear of your illness. It sounds very difficult indeed. I have been dealing with vertigo spells and horrible sleep for the past several months off and on. I never seem to know when a scary dizzy attack is coming, so I can kind of relate to what you are saying here. I woke just the other day unable to focus on anything in the room (but thank goodness it passed after about 10 min.)I am not 100% sure of the cause of mine, but I am thinking that the bad sleep cycle is fueling the other issue. On a bright note I too have repeated the above verse lately (For I know the plans) but for another situation that seemed impossible. God recently answered that prayer in an AMAZING way that was more perfect than I could have even pictured. It took 2 full years for the prayer of my heart's desire to come to fruition, and now I have been blessed in a beautiful way. I guess repeating that verse paid off because sometimes God answers prayer, and He answers it better than we ever though with our small view. I pray your prayers on this illness will be answered , and until then that you are able to get through these times with joy in your heart in spite of. ~Rebekah (from we live inspired)

  4. I watched a short SocialCam today,by Karen Peck. She shared,what we already know,but it was a good reminder,that God is always enough.I pray that you will find this to be true in your life as well.

  5. Praying for you dear, asking God to forever remain close by your side.

  6. I'm so sorry to hear that you're having so much difficulty, SD. I keep you in my best thoughts. I wish nothing but the best for you. Gentle hugs.

  7. sorry to read this but glad you found the DVD... i believe prayer will not make a disease we have go away, but it will help us to cope with it.

  8. So sorry Stacey! Praying you'll see him as he walks with you.

  9. So many times I've found myself having to say with Habakkuk ... "yet will I rejoice in God my Savior."

    It's that "yet" that can be so difficult. Prayers for peace as you deal with this. Know that you are often in our thoughts and prayers.

  10. One step at a time and one day at a time....knowing you are not alone and that the Lord walks beside you is the only way I can go through my life too. As S. Etole said in her comment, "yet will I rejoice in God my Savior. The key would is YET.
    I'm talking to my self too.
    Thank you for being transparent and sharing with us. you will continue to be in my prayers.