Day 20/31: Fear (Finding Jesus)



Fear is faith that it won't work out.  ~Sister Mary Tricky


I signed up to write for 31 Days with every intention of writing and posting every single one of those 31 Days.

However, God had something else in mind.

An opportunity came up to go visit ill and dear family far, far away from home.  And, I jumped at it.

However, fear took hold of me and gripped me hard.  Anxiety paralyzed me to the point of feeling completely out of control.

I haven't traveled much.  I was leaving my baby behind for 8 days (which I'd never done before). And, I'd made a writing commitment here on this blog. There were other anxieties, too, but those alone are enough to spark the remembrance of the terror I felt.

A trusted and loved Christian mentor/friend (yes, you Texas!) gave me this verse to meditate on:   2 Timothy 1:7:  For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.  

I repeated this verse (or parts of it) over and over...night and day....day and night.  Every time anxiety or fear gripped my insides with menacing clenched fists I'd repeat the only part I could remember:  "no fear, sound mind."

Those few words got me out my door and all the way onto the Amtrak train with a smile on my face and excitement peaking at what this adventure would bring.

The anxiety didn't leave me once the train left the station.  It continued to be a hidden splinter in the palm of my hand.

God was right there every single time with tweezers to remove the offense and soothe my being with a healing kiss.

I made it to Illinois and back home.

Yes, I did it!!!  No one could ever be more surprised than I.
 
It was amazing.
The time with my Mom, my relatives and the newly acquired family.... 
The gorgeous beauty racing by all the way from the Great Plains to the Shining Seas and everywhere in between. 

I was so blessed to be covered in prayer as I was on my journey.  I felt Christ's presence melt away my fear time and again as it tried to rear its ugly head.

I thank Jesus for continuing to remind me that He is always near and that Faith overcomes Fear.

Hallelujah!

I'll catch ya on the other side of a Click....

SD




PS:  Due to the impromptu adventure, I'm behind in my commitment to the 31 Day writing schedule.  My plan is to catch up....even after the 31 days are over.  Blessings to you!!

5 comments

  1. Oh,I am so happy for you,that you pushed yourself out of that comfort zone and made this trip.

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  2. glad you made the trip and overcame your fear. i do know fear is paralizying and suffer from it now and in the past. good for you riding that train. i love trains

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  3. I'm proud of you Washington. ;)

    1 John 5:4 - For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith.

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  4. Faith, not fear. Simple, true. So glad you had this opportunity...I look forward to seeing some pictures! Click!

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  5. It's exciting to read how you became an overcomer and received blessings and blessed your family too.
    And now, things will continue to fall into place.
    Sometimes it's baby steps and other times it's huge leaps of Faith.
    Love reading your posts Staci.
    Keep them coming.
    Sue

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